Ramsey Orta says he wakes up crying sometimes, and he won’t know why.
A few days will pass, and suddenly he’ll remember the dream. The one where he’s on that block in Staten Island, on that cool July day, filming a police officer putting his friend Eric Garner into a chokehold.
Only this time, Orta feels an arm wrap around his own neck, squeezing tighter and tighter. Until he can’t breathe.
“And then it just goes all black,” Orta said.
There are other dreams too: the one where he’s running from the cops, and the one where somebody in a hoodie walks up to him in a park and shoots him.
“Pretty much all my dreams are messed up,” he said. “I don’t remember the last time I had a nice dream.”